October 2

hi..so fast oct le..so fast sia..haha..
tdy was quite a sian day..as per normal i wake at at 7.05 n prepare everything den walk to 963 bus stop..den fast walk fast fast in case i miss 963..lucky can catch it..si bei heng..haha..
reach cls le den find out the cognitive faci didn come..den is a another malay guy faci relief us..n still the same lo..the problem statement is as hard as ever..most of us was blur..dunno wth is it talkin bout..the cls oso quite a few ppl absent..bout 5 like tt didn come..and martin didn come oso..miracle sia..i first time saw him pon ten sch..haha..he say he tired tt y he didn come..den tdy i team wit vevian, hidaya n zaimah..3 gals n 1 guy..den whole dae i no mood to do work...keep on going aroud da cls go disturb ppl..bleh..= p ..haha..den manage to finish everything n we go present...n tdy was very early finish..3.30 the cls end alr..whoa..den veri sad..i duno wt to do lo..so early release sia..dots..den i ask alan whether he wan to go home tgt...but he everytime lol one lo..say alot of things to do..ask him wan to go home tgt n he say nid to do rj and send in army letter..wtf..i was seriously veri piss wit him at tt time..try to ask him go out he oso say gt project tis n tat..wa lao..heck care la..everytime he like tt one..i gt veri angry wit him sometime..
but in e end...he pang seh mi ask mi go first...freak..de nvm la.n saw clarence n his gf at 7-11..nw see him so mani time..like wat like tt..so i faster go ask for his msn in case i forgot again..den call johan ask him out so tt i can return money to him..meet him at panjang interchange den we go eat at LJS..follow him go buy prepaid card n bubble tea n we go interchange there chill for while..den aft tt tak 176 home-ing n he take lrt..reach home le..nw slack...slack...slack...nw still decidin next wk to put wat schedule at spag...
den 1 thing had always been on my mind..cos jus nw during cls i go see her blog..saw tt her blogskin has change again..n tis time the blogskin is smth which i dun like to see..n i rmb tt i heard she was gonna to breakup wit him soon...nw wat sia..do until like so loving....i was feelin so sad..den i tink alot..i duno whether i wan to continue tis..or jus giv up on her..i realli dunno..since she alr tell mi she onli treat mi as a friend..but y i stil tryin to perserve..when i knew tt we most likely wil nt b tgt de...i am lost...i wan an answer....n wan to stop all tis misery...
tis is realli hw i felt..feel like my heart was tearing apart..

antipasto : // look tough on the outside..fragile on the inside..tat mi.....

[ i hate loneliness......get the hell away from me..!!]